Wondering??? Pondering???

10 years... So many thing can be done in 10 years time, so many people can be met in 10 years me. A girl will turn into a lady in 10 yrs. I wonder why must one be so "insistant"? (got tis word?).. Shld i salute to ppl like tis? or shld i say she is juz stupid. Why cling on something that do not belong to you or perhap will never be yours? There's other man and obviously this man whom u r in luv and wasted so much time , will never accept u!

Secretly in luv with him since 10 or 11 yrs ago, He likes her as a younger sister but will never love her. guess it's becos of male instinct, all man likes slim and cheerful girls, i was one 10 yrs ago... He told me he is troubled becos he know tis girl likes him, and friends around her tends to make use of the girl's weakness,eg. by helping her to get him out to movie, all 6 of them will tag along and of course she have to pay for them ! Sucks rite.. He wasn't aware initially until one fine day someone blurt out, he don't want her to waste her $ as well as time hence he ask my help to make the girl give up, guess i was playful as well as angry of those "good friends of hers" i said ok. My 1st impression of tis girl.. Sweet looking,easily bullied but was on the "huge" side. She was disappointed when she realised that he brought his "GF" to the show, well she juz has to keep her cool. Frankly speaking, i almost wanted to give up when i see the "disappointment" in her eyes, but he says NO. We were gd actor/actress and by the end of the whole show, she is "beatened".. so the story went on, the prince and princess live together happily!

She NEVER give up, she still remember to get him a amulet every new yr, a small gift every valentine and X'mas, as well as B'day. She will call him, despite that most of the time the conversation end hastily cos he will be watching tv, shopping, having a feast or even on the way to fetch his wife. Guess she must be disappointed, but guess it's fated that since day one when she fall in luv with him, she will be disppointed for the rest of her life if she don't give up. He ever tell her that he is worried that his wife will be angry, but she said she has no friends... she wanted to be friend with his wife, if possible. I've told him, it's her excuse but HE iS SOooo NAIVE.... she is juz using tis method in order to be able to hear his voice and look at him.

10 years..... How can she waste her time tis way? I was angry with him at time cos i felt that he is giving her false hope, but i know he don't have the intention at all. He has done his best by hinting and telling straight, but she jus live in her own castle, weaving her dreams.... perhaps so long she gets to see him once a while, listen to his voice once a while, she is satisfied.

Oh dear.. i'm so sleepy now.. guess it's becos last nite slept late, almost 1am and the heavy breakfast n lunch! How later gonna go for steamboat.. how am i suppose to carry out my diet plan sia... Ok promised erm... not promising anyone, but more like a "die die must do" thing i told myself, gotta start soon.. both plans. diet n family planning... target will be 5 kg 1st, if able to shed more, tat will be beri wonderful leh..! tis wkend got BBQ, so by monday.. 1/8/05.. die die must start.
Plans as follow:

• Gua sha - as frequent as possible
• lime water every morning to detox (in fact, i've got the lime SQUEEZED)
• Cut down on my carbo intake.

Not too bad.. not too many rules to follow so... can lah.. i tink so lah.. no problem lah... Wish me Luck@@@!!!

Tmrw goin "Steamboat Buffet" with Steph... Gonna b a real good feast, since both of us eat ALOTzzzz. Will start my diet plan soon.. if possible... how can i disappoint her.. right? we both love food and it's a b'day treat.. so... juz indulge myself for the day!Hooray.. I can't help to tink of the Tom YAm Soup Base.. It's Marvellous and Heavenly... Ok. Forget abt the diet plan....

Surprised Gift

Samput, An Indian young man who worked for my hubby's friend. He 1st came abt 18month ago. Since he is abt my nephew's age, automatically I have special feeling toward him. It's not easy to leave the family, spend so much money travelling all the way to work in s'pore, worst being alone. The 1st day when he started, My hubby & myself went to the supermarket to buy food for him, i still remember i bought him veggie and chicken as well as a pkt of rice. He was grateful and guess the gesture really touches him. I even bought him a shirt, cos i realised he don't have many clothing with him, so i tot juz get him a shirt for his b'day. So all these while, he "respected" me i tink and no doubt he is a very good young man, juz wanna earn and go back to india. On 24th morning, he was the 1st to call & wish me "Hapi B'day", i was surprised that after one yr he can still remember & he said "yes, becos last yr we had a BIG celebration for you at HQ".. Oh ya.. tat's right, they even recorded it into a CD. last nite the moment i reached HQ, he went to his room, handed me a nicely wrapped box, i was really surprised, I appreciated it but at the same time, i don't want him to spend $$, cos he don't earn much, abt $650/- per mth. I like the gift very much, it's a tea light holder with 3 little angels on the stand, it's sweet.
Sad to say, end of the year, he will be ask to go back becos my friend don't need him anymore, but we can't tell him..... But i guess he won't be too sad, cos he misses his family and he told me, if he can turn back the clock, he won't wanna cum to work here at all. Hopefully by that time, the bosses will give him some additional token , I will ask them to do so even if they don't, cos i have some shares in it too....
I'll tell him, it's ok, at least he is back to his home, we will visit him if there a chance and he already said if i go india, i can stay at his place.. come on lah.. he belongs to "middle class" so life not too bad there! I'm looking forward for the trip too.

Your Friendship means so much to ME

* True Friend will have a heavy heart when they know that you are blue.
They'll smother you with Kindness and ask what they can do.
They are SPECIAL people in my life and one of them is "U"

*Best Friends are made in Heaven and sent to us to share.
They are so hard to find becos they're very Rare.. I know that you are Special and It's only you - I can Depend.

Faith is not belief without proof, but trust without reservation.
I believe and trust in YOU!

My Dear Friend..Thank You!

Went Teresa's place for facial session.. haha like 'tai tai".. the beautician not too bad, quite nice, but a talk a bit too much.. sigh.. thought can take a little nap! Told Teresa, I felt as if i'm in a posh salon, cos there's drink, there's nice bed, great air-con and of course not to say the soothing music.. Best of all, she cooked dessert and GREAT Soup.. mind you, cantonese are superb in making soup. After the whole session of cleansing, moisturising and toning, not to mention the mask, it's so refreshing. Oh ya.. the beautician compliment that i have good skin, juz tat i need to do simple cleansing. Aiya, sometime i'm juz too lazy, i admit.

The whole session was paid for and a felt bad too.. she claim that it's a brithday treat to me, but i know it's not only that. Even when i introduce the "gua sha" slimming technique, she went to buy the guasha board for me, so of course i gotta to some homework, get the book for her! I received a birthday card attached with an ang bao of $128/- from her too.

She is just too nice. Since day one when i started to work for her as temp admin clerk, which was abt 10 years ago? WOW.. time flies! we have been very close, so close that we shared all our happiness and sadness. It's fate which brought us together and I know this gonna be a lifetime friendship! Thanks for being a friend!
In fact, i'm a lucky girl, so lucky to have so many good friends with me, such as -

Osh - Thanks for the makan treat
Glad - Thks for the makan treat
Dor - Thks for the sashimi
Lily - Thank you for the nice card
Jacques - Thanks for the 7 wonder _ful gifts
Samput - (friend fr india) - Thks for the "early morning" birthday greeting
darryl - Thks for the shopping voucher
Marcus, gary, jerry Reika,Monica,Kenny,uncle and aunty, dear gene gene and all - thks for the greeting
Steph - Thank you in advance for the makan -will slot a day 4u :)
Adik - Thanks for the little book!
Last but not least - The someone special for the special "BIG NOTE"
See, it's a blessing to have so many great friends.

My "7 Wonders" Gift

Met up with Jacques last nite, went coffee bean. Gosh.. he showed all the beautiful pictures he took during his one month's birthday treat. I guess there's no word to describe....The Oriental Hotel @ Bkk, Gorgeous... the scenery, the food, the room and even the toilet, was soooooo beautiful, of course the money! US$1000/- per nite.. mind you!
Dubai was another great place... The accessories in the bathroom.. believe it or not.. all GOLD PLATED! so what is tat "gold plated Tap".. it's really peanut! hahahaha.. They perfume, the shower cream, the shampoo.. ha... all "HERMES".. U can use as much as u can, they will top up for you if u need more.. so like what Jacques says " Being a 1/2 Singaporean, i'm beginning to be typical, I ASK FOR MORE, as token of appreciation for my mum n sisters!" The ridiculous part... US$200/- for a buffet breakfast.. fresh salmon, smoke turkey, caviar, smoke salmon, and 20 over kinds of Jam, expensive cheese and even Camel Milk! droollllllll sia....
He also went London, and got a opportunity to watch their parade as well as a photo of the station before the Bomb strike.... and many more other places... In fact, it's more that 100 pictures.. i can't recall...
Guess i'm really old... i wld like to share what is the gift from him, but.. my mind is not working.. perhap becos of the heavy lunch, shall blog abt it tmrw.. go home and check what is it exactly.
Jacques... Such a Sweet Guy.. He put in lots of effort to get all the gifts for me, since most of them were fragile, guess he really need to take extra care.. Appreciate.. really... Thank You, My Dear Friend... Forever..

It's my birthday this friday! "30" already... sigh.. there goes the youth of woman... But it's ok, anyway then most important thing is - Young @ He@rt!!!

So many plans... so little time.. 24hours don't seems to be enough for me.. luckily the bunch of "monkeys" are all gone, went for their religious trip or else... the celebration is going to be one full week like last year!

Plans as follow: Wed Night, meet up with Jacques to collect the 7 gifts he bought from 7 cities, no dinner, perhap a drink.. Not enough time, anyway he need to get back to work. In fact I will be most happy if he can bring me to the cities.. hahaha.. typical Singaporean, never satisfied! Then meet up with Glad, for a quick Dinner and gossiping session.

Thurs - Lunch with Osk.. gonna be a QUICK one, gotta get back to work.. already told her, no gift pls, don't waste $$ . Original plan for the evening, eat "mee suah" @ home with my hubby, but.... Uncle & aunty say will cook for me... so heading to their house for mee suah.. then sure kena stuck there, but ok lah... they are nice to cook for me, so i have to play my part too.

Friday - between 12.15-1.00, MUST have lunch with khoofy, can't decline the offer... juz got the sms from her... can't run! 1.30pm must reach Tampines, Mdm Theresa arranged someone to do facial and massage session for me.. Shiok! Tai tai style... before 7pm must reach home, hubby waiting... having dinner with SKK and friends @ dunno where? they decide.... But strictly no excuses to be given to leave early e.g majong session!!!

Sat - MUST go and settle bills and payment, then to my sister house, they say will cook my favourite food.. actually i don't even have any so-call favourite food, more like it, their fav food:( At nite, go meet steph for dinner.... again... eat & eat....

Sun - The BIG Day... Wake up, wash up.. go to the temple to pray pray.. so coincident, this yr my b'day is the "Guanyin" b'day too, so must go pray pray. Then perhap walk walk see see lor.... JUST THE 2OF US PLEASEeeeeeee as usual, on this day, my hubby will do EVERYTHING... i just sit back and "order" hahaha... so happy.... can make him run the whole singapore to get me what i wanna eat... heeeeee poor boy...

In Fact... I need no expensive gift or posh restaurant... I'm happy and lucky to have all my loved ones remembering my birthday and there for me.

"Best friends are made in heaven & sent to us to share, they are so hard to find becos they are very Rare"

Worries CLE@RED

Finally all my doubts and worries cleared! Phew..... What a relief! But..... I kinda worried tat my dearest hubby would be very disappointed and sad????? Strangely, he became very "attentive" to me lately, all becos of my "false alarm".. i don't mean to.. but the symptoms and signs made me d*mn worried... I know even if i'm NOT, he still cares for me, i never doubt that at all. But it's really Shiok that he will keep asking me what i wanna eat, he will keep pestering me to eat durian <> Oh Gosh, but i never fancy durian before! Well, I'm just a lucky woman... although my hubby is not handsome nor rich, but he loves and care for me! Most importantly, he is matured, he has beginning to be someone responsible, not that he wasn't before, but he is a changed person now.
But i felt so bad, he was happy and i guess he was prepared to be a daddy, he always wanted a bb girls, but all the bills and loans was killing us, that why we dare not even dare to plan of it, perhap..... 2 years later.. hopefully i'm willing to give up the "freedom".

Anyway, will have to reveal the new to him tonight that, Thank God, I'm NOT! I hope he won't proposed to start planning now :(

Phew! It's really damn stressful man.....................

Life is so fragile

Went to the memorial service for the last 3 days... She is so popular among her friends, aunt was surprised to see swamp of people flooding the hall... She really never expected khim to have so many friends. Not only that, we realized that she was respected by so many people. It was sad, for so long, the weather was dry... but the last day it rains... so heavy... guess even heaven pity her.. she is so successful, so young and so pretty... she has got Class...... like what her friend had mention in the ecology, she is someone who is very responsible and she is such a beautiful lady, she is so charming, so confident.... The song by Ken Hirai, Omoi ga kasanaru sono mae ni, her favourite song touched everyone there... Almost all of us cried, including the one who told me, he will be strong as an ox.... how can one hold on to the tears at that kind of atmosphere.... the cries of the nieces, the tears on the parent face and the shivering sister........................ All these reminds me of what happened 5 years ago.. i tried to hold on to my tears too.. cos i am supposed to console the parent as well as him, i have to be strong, but no way..... the music, the crying.. oh gosh... i felt so useless...
Things have finally come to an end... a complete closure... Life still has to go on... we all know, they know, and they will... for the sake of their beloved, charming, kind, confident angel..... Khim..................
Rest in peace.

GOOD NEWS

Hooray.... after 6 months, my friend finally found the body of his sister! It so unbelieveable! he saw this moth at his place few weeks ago, he has a very strong feeling that the moth was his sister, hence he ask the moth " Sis, was that u, if it's you, can give me some response" Kinda creepy... but the moth really fly and landed on his shoulder. He was so excited and he told the sister that the whole family missed her, why don't she come back... dad and mum was sick, they really miss her.. and he hope the sister can come to his dream and tell him when will she be back. SO, he ask again" Is it possible to bring you back from Phuket by end June" and the moth flew away.. he strongly believe that he will, and i too hope so. Finally, 5 min ago he sms me, telling me that the CID will be going to his place, apparently they have found the body, so they will need to discuss with him the procedure. Phew.... finally a closure.. I just hope the parent could accept it, because i knew that all these months they have been telling themselves that " maybe my daughter was save by someone, she lost her memories and that why she didn't come home".. They knew she is no longer in this world, but as a mother/father, it's always sad to see the children suffer, worst met with mishap... I hope they will be fine.... I'll try my best to help them during this period of time... I pray that the rest of the bodies can be found soon.. lots of family lost their loved ones and still waiting for them to go home...