Love is all around

They say love hides behind every corners.... I do agree with that. Gee... i was very happy last evening becos i have so many GREAT and WOnderful guys around me. Of course they are someone I Love and Likes/liked.

First, HE picked me up from work, haha, was pretty shocked when rec'd his call, a bit Guilty too.. leaving my hubby alone & go out wif other guys.. well.. i did ask for permission.. but frankly, at times i felt tat my hubby is too "Relaxed" he is not cautious at all.. well, it takes two hands to clap, probably he really TRUST me and have confident in me that i won't go the "WRONG way". Anyway, i know my status, I'm MRS GOH!
Then while shopping, met CC HO, Oops.. i shldn't have called him tat.. aiya.. shld be my "ex-husband" hahaha, i was known to be "Mrs Ho" abt 15 yrs ago, in school whereby most ppl call me by tis, guess he knew tat. He is still as fit as before, of course there's some wrinkles on his face, cum on, he shld be in his 50s oreadi, but hor... he is still as fit as before, i was drooling.... when i see him in his swimming trunk 15 yrs ago.. Perfect figures.But tat time, i nvr tot of "Raping" him lah.. Only my friends tot i may have the intention. Can't even find any fats in him man.. In fact i haven't got a chance to find one who has the figure like him,and whom always know how carry himself in the BEST way. . Oh gosh... drooling................ I'm happy tat he still remembers me.I still remember tat the last time i saw him was at a BBQ organised by the class and he sent me home after that.(tat was abt 11yrs ago, i was 19 tat yr) We had a very Good and long chat at the beach..till abt 3am. Nothing happen lah.. my classmate tot something might happen cos the BBQ ends abt 11pm and i was still not home at 3am.. she was scolded by my sis for calling me so late.. Sorry Jun!

He tot HE is my hubby / BF, in fact i am a little happy when he mistaken HIM to be my hubby.. at least at tat moment it like "dream comes true".. "SHIOK"! hahaha.. oh dear, how can a married woman behave tis way.. must go for confession.. aiyoyo oh dear... But.. seriously.. i know my limit.
** You Cannot always control what goes on outside. But you can always control what goes on inside**

Superman No More

sigh... juz when we finally found out tat superman can be fun and starting to understand him... he is flying to Seletar to "save the world" guess it becos of the "white hair freak"!
Adik, don't be sad, juz make sure u keep yr promise, give him a big big kiss, before u regret. Poor adik, 1st, anton the casanova left, and now the super hero... sigh.. but anyway, there's this chinese saying " if the old ones don't go, how would the new ones come".. so don't be sad, hopefully the next Romeo, or batman,iceman,spiderman etc... will come soon. forget abt the sweet & sour pork.. he can't make it lah...hahahaha.
I wonder shld i pity superman for been kick around or shld i say he is so good tat the boss send him to save the world. Anyway, no matter what, it's been 6mths working wif him, i do wish him all the best. who knows, it mayb a blessing in disguise.

my dear friend

Oh dear, i tink he is in trouble... i'm really worried for him.. esp after tat jap song & aft the msg fr my friend. I know ever since the mishap in the family, he is under tonnes of pressures & stress, worst now all bad things seems to stretched to his biz.. i know he won't die without the coy, it's not the only investment he has, but no matter what it's is effort, i'm sure he won't feel good . All things comes together, as an outsider, i felt breathless, i can't imagine what gonna come next.
Last nite he looked so upset, so worried and tired, yet all i can do is stand beside him and look at him. thou i know tat's the least he is expecting. That's part of the reason why he is willing to share wif me, i know my part and i know his needs... but it's only that much i can do and give... who am i? i'm nobody but the friend's wife... The "whole world" is blaming and misunderstanding him as giving attitude, stubborn and irresponsible, he can't be bother to explain, he told me he is happy so long as he knows that there's me who know him and understand him

A child's smile is priceless

A child's smile is indeed priceless and heart melting. Yesterday was Yang Yang's b'day, i wrap up some goodies for his classmates and bought him his 1st Band! It's something which he longed to have and it's not something expensive but the moment he saw it, he gave me a VERY Broad smile :) In fact he has been so excited when i promise him i will buy for him.
He really n'joy himself very much when we have the band fixed up. He really can play the drums so well, guess will have to upgrade the set very soon.. He was so worried and angry when Ray hits the drum really hard, and of course he scolded Ray.
It's so good to be a child, easily satisfied, no conflict, no worries.. all they do is eat, sleep, play and N'joy! there's always someone to pamper and love them, someone to provide for them. No politics among friends,no hatred.

Heartless Jerk

How can a husband be so heartless, u marry a person becos u love her, why is it so that one can be so heartless to torture the wife like how he did. Do u tink by giving a minimal allowance to the wife, u can do wat u want... u say couples MUST have regular sex, but refuse to use protection, worst if wife got pregnant, the only solution given was ABORTION. Pls.. that's a life, the bb has the rite to live, furthermore, have u ever spare a thought for yr wife's health. If u tink she is not important, let her go.. why must u hang on to the marriage which mean nothing to you. Fancy bad mouth your wife in front of the children, what kind of father are you? If u tink yr brother means everything to u, in the first place, don't get married! stay wif yr pervert bro forever, u can have "regular sex" wif yr bro, by all mean, who cares! Have u ever care abt yr wife's feeling, she has to be the murderer, killing the foetus, worst when there is complication after the abortion, u simply ignore, your only worries is u have to attend a course and u can't take leave.. F*** off, a jerk and pervert like you can't go anywhere. U have no respect for yr wife and her family, so does yr family member. Mind u, the woman whom u looked down, was the mother of yr sons, was one whom u sleep wif, so i guess we shld be the one who shld look down on you. If u are so capable, get lost! U are worst than a beast, fancy issue chq for monthly allowance, do u need yr wife to sign payment voucher or not.

White Board Duster

Suddenly tink of my sec sch maths teacher, Was it maths?? shld be lah.. his name is Ng K** P*** i tink so lah.. he is a short middle aged specky man, with "bowl shaped" hairstyle,and always pulling his pants. He has very loud voice and if he laugh, his face will "blush" and he walk very fast ( thou he has short legs). The funniest part of him was, he tend to call out yr name and u have to answer his question on the spot.. there is no time for u to tink, u either walk straight to the board and do the sum or u will kena the "white board duster" on your face!!!! of course he make sure that the duster is full of chalk powder... there is no way u can hide, he will walk very fast towards you and within seconds u will find yr face "WHITE". of course his usual line will be " OK, U kena oreadi" and "Tug" the duster on yr face... u are not allow to clean it off until end of his class.. tat's not the end, he will ask you to copy one chapter of the history book, no joke.. minimum 5times.. of course girls got discount.. he will ask which side of the face u prefer to put powder on and same thing, copy the chapter... Of course i kena b4, and the most miracle part was.. don't try to cheat on your notes.. when u submit to him, if u tink u can cheat by copying part of it or use bigger hand writting, u r WRONG, he seems to have memorised all the note, he will glance thru and if he tink u r cheating, he make sure you re-write everything and of course he will double it... so i guess those who always kena, will pass their history with flying colours! dunno y, tis morning when i on my way to work, suddenly tink of him... guess.. i'm old oreadi.. start to tink back... but why didn't i tink of that "prince charming"... Mr Ho??? dunno leh...mayb cos he is my "EX" hahaha inconvenient to blog lah.. so many mushy things.. hahaha

uncle from China

Hey, it's not abt "smiley" but my real uncle from China called... Trunk call leh... so nice of him, till now can still remember us. He is in fact my dad's cousin who actually at that time abt 50yrs ago, wanna run away from "be a soldier" - NS lah.. so the parent sent him to china, till now. Before dad passed away, i tink i only seen him 3 times.. cos it's not cheap to come back often but i noe he never forget my dad. Each time he come, both will have never-ending conversation, he will come to my pl, remove his T-shirt, only wear his singlet and have a feast with my dad. I know he respected my dad alot. I still remember i gave him a cross stitch which he commented very nice so i rush to complete it for him to bring back as a souvenir, it's more than 15yrs ago, and surprisingly he still remember it.
It's one of his regret that he didn't attend dad's funeral, and it's been such a long time, we have changed our tel no for so many times, yet, wif his "superb" memory, he remember tat my sis work in "Bank of China", he called up the HQ and from there trace my sis whereabt and tat's where he got our contacts. It's really the thought which at times make us felt so bad. We shld be the one who call and visit him, yet.....I've ask for his add & told him if i strike 4d, i'll visit him..He is so cute, he say hope i strike first prize. Well, He is already 75yrs old, if dad is still around will be 77..... i hope i can go shanghai and pay him a visit too.. u noe when u grown older, u tends to treasure people around u....like the way they treasure you.

Karma ? Retribution

Tis young man, fr a multi-million family, owns sport cars, condos, big company, pretty GF, but was nvr happy. Always reserved, dare not reveal his true self in front of the family, only when love ones is lost, full of regrets, y didn't he treasure the time with the sister.. & only when one lost someone, then only u can see a person's true color, be it yr own siblings. $ really make wonders.. $ really can drive one to be unscruplous, who cares if u r my bro/sis... "$$" is all i can see. Felt betray by the sis, wonder why did the sister became so money minded.. Fine, if u r happier when u inherit all the $ & property, U may have all... only when u have all, u will know, u will never be happy, u will regret why are u treating yr bro like dirt.. treating someone who really cares abt u like stranger... Tis bro of yours have decided to sell all his valuables, put down all his feelings to be a MONK... everything is your's sooner or later.. why can't you just be patient.. it's not gonna take long....
Tis onl woman, fierce, money minded, self-centered never bother abt others' feeling, so what if u r my son, got $ got son, no $ no talk. So wat if she has got 7 children and 17 grandchildren.. to others, she is so lucky, blessed, but deep inside her heart, she jolly well knows tat, it's nvr a complete family, that pl she is staying is a house, not a HOME... the children she has, is not loving, there's no bro-sis love between all.. everyone in the family got motive, all those she treated like diamonds and gems are plotting against her, thou she is not that rich.. cos the other favourite son of hers, took most of her $, yet the only son she treated like "SH*T" ends up to be one she can rely on... the only one who is always there when she needed someone. it's too late, the cancer in her, gonna eat her up, bit by bit... it's only when u gonna lose it, then u will treasure it... but... it's juz too late!!

My Dear Junior..

Yesterday took urgent leave... wat to do, cried the whole nite, how to show up at work with "swollen" eyes.. all cos of my bro-in-law, he triggered the sadness in the bottom of our heart. I know he misses him, but... it's bad lor.. I or we believed that it's not good to cry for one who have left us, cos that will make them sad and refuse to move on.. he has suffered this life, having to end his life this way, all i wished was he can go for his reincarnation, go to a better family, and stay safe and happy. When we cry, he will turn back and others will overtake him, then he have to join the queue all over again.. that will drag his time... i don't want that to happen... that's why during "qing ming", June (his b'day), "ghost month" and dec the fateful day we will feel very sad, but have to really control our tears, really no words can describe how we feel all these years.. this year will be the 6th years but it's like yesterday. If he is around, he will be 23.
Nior... we don't cry doesn't mean we have forgotten abt you, u are such an Angel, U will always in our heart and there's no one who can replace you, NEVER.......Just promise me, you will move on... i'm sure God will pitied you and all of us, who have to lose you and i'm sure u will be happier and be safe and healthy in the next life. I wished you can be my Baby, but it's really not the time....wherever u are, Rest in Peace.... Love you, always...

Bosom friend

When something happened, he was the one i will tink of & ask for help, beside my husband. He is one whom i can share.. everything... I guess i meant the same to him cos i rec'd a call from him juz now, he ask abt my in-law, at least he cares... I know he is very stressed too.. so what if he is rich, but so many things has happened to the family member, to the loved ones... it all seems to come one after the other, he is getting breathless. Luckily his sister's issue is closed but he still have his parent, his coy, his GF and even HQ. Seems like all of them are giving him problem. He know he can't collapes, too many people needs him. He jokingly said i'm one of em too. Frankly speaking, i'm trying hard to help him, to lessen his burden, but there is really not much i can help. I was worried when he told me he dunno how long & how much can he take anymore. I know it's becos of the parent, imagine one by one going to the hospital, it's like nvr ending, almost every week he need to be in out the hospital... scans, x-ray, chemo, ops etc... i know the stress...
I'm sorry if in the afternoon you call, i will chase you to go to work, i'm sorry even thou i know u had a hard day, rushing to and fro hospital, i still ask you to go to office, i'm sorry when the "big babies" nag at you, i still want u to spend time with em.. becos i care. It's not easy to juggle between the 2, but i hope u understd, these are the VIP things in life, which i hope u don't give up. And you know very well that I've always been supportive in watever u do, I wished i can pamper you, but definitely not spoilt you, so don't take advantage.
Like wat i always say, if u need someone to talk to, i'll be there...

Is it so difficult to stay Faithful?

I juz could sense that something is not right the moment when i rec'd yr sms. It's not the usual cheerful, jovial sms. That's y, my reply was "R U OK" instead of answering yr question. I was ANGRY and felt like giving yr hubby punches n slaps. What does he want? he has a happy family, an understanding and diligent wife who is willing to stay at home to take care of the 3 lovely kids, giving up her career. Imagine, doing household chores for an executive flat, without maid, U have never complain at all. U love him and the family as well as all his siblings and people around him, u cook and wash for him, yet he betray you again and again. Why, juz becos after 3 kids u put on weight or becos you have grown old... what abt him, ask him to look into the mirror, is he any better. What those young girls and china woman look upon him was $$$$ nothing else, ask him to wake up! The first time he said he is sorry, he will not hurt u again, then why the 2nd time. Does tat mean each time he juz need to apologise and we have to forgive him. Like wat i told you, tis time round, tell him FIRMLY. U take it as a entertainment, since he need to open up the market in china, it's unavoidable tat he has to entertain those China biz man, but he better draw a line. don't eat and shit at the same place. Tell him, God will know wat he is doing, there is no way he can hide, or else why was it each time when he did something wrong, yr young girl will play with his hp and reveal his secret... he better wake up, or else he will lost everything. U gonna be strong, no matter what happen, u still have me, don't worry. I'll be by your side.

Don't give Up!

I don't understd, why are you giving up on yourself? It's hurts me so much when you told me 'I GIVE UP, will wait for the govt to give me pocket $ when i'm old"! Oh gosh.... It's not u, u are such a confident and smart lady. I wish i could have learn more from you, but it's all fated that we can only be colleague for such a short period. Like what you had always said, you wished you could work with me and Sharon, we share the same sentimental too, but how can that dream be fulfilled if you are not taking the step out. Friend, why? what went wrong? why are you giving up hope.. Times are bad, but you are not the only one who is suffering, there are thousands of ppl having the same fate as us, but they are not giving up, why can't you just try, at least try to stand up! In terms of committment, you know my burden is so much heavier than you, but... i juz have to grip my teeth and move on, telling myself, "Tmrw will be better"! Do you still remember the "promise" you made to me, 2 years back, u said " erica, i can still support you 100bucks every month, so don't worry". Frd, I felt so warm each time when i recall what you have told me... but if now i were to tell you, i still want you to keep that promise, and you are giving yourself up, what will happen to me.. Please Lily, don't give up, It's hurts me so much esp i know there's nothing much i could help you, i wish i could and i've tried but i need your help to stand up too.. u may be skinny, but i really have no strength to carry you, pls stand up on your feet again! I want to eat "expensive" chocolates and candies.. those branded stuff which you bought for me 3 years ago... Who cares if I gonna put on weight, i juz wanna have a good "choco time" with you & jolyn again.

Sickening "white hair" freak

This stupid "white hair"freak from Training, really pissed me off. He is bloody irritating... even my snr mgr agree with me. He keep asking for cert yet when u give him, he juz file it up.. worst, u won't be able to get it out from his file at all. all the engineer can't stand him too.. he is really sickening. The ang moh got so agitated when i ask em for eir doc, in fact ey have nothing.. tat idiot JO has everything.. i don't blame em, me too suspect as much. Both JO and his PA sucks.. guess ey only sit and rot...Donald e engineer tot his friends were "scolding" me, quickly give me a little "fatherly hug" & explain to em tat i'm juz carrying out my duties. So sweet rite! ey are not blaming me, ey know tat white white freak too well.
sucks sucks sucks.... stupid white hair sucker.

Antonio the Casanova

1st day of August, 1 piece of bad news. Our casanova Antonio left the coy. There goes someone who always brings laughter to the office and who was always saying sweet words to girls, someone who was always in love and young@ heart. It's not worth it lor.. whenever they need someone to do OT, he tried to make it possible. Although he is at fault, but this incident was juz an excuse to get rid of him. They wanna do so since day 1. Since now they have new guys coming, they don;t mind giving him up. No doubt, he is not the best worker, but at times, i felt that ppl here r juz to personal. So what if it's customer who lodge the complaint, customer maybe important, but they are not always right.
I guess Ant won't be too sad, in fact i know he won't wanna extend the contract when it ends too. but still the feeling "Yucks"... being suspend was bad enuf. Perhap it's him who throw the letter, what so great abt tis coy who nvr treasure their staff.
Cldn't get him on the phone, didn;t even get a chance to say "thank you" and "goodbye". But i hope he know, we will always remember our "CASANOVA, ANTONIO".
Antonio.... Thank you for everything.. (including those hipcup.. u have given to me..haha) Take very good care of yourself and don't drink too much.

Look backwards with Gratitude, Upwards with Confidence and Forwards to Hope.

The Value of Friendship - NOTHING!

I'm Boiling and bleeding inside! Sucks! U call tis "friend"? Why make use of me? juz becos I'm close wif "THE MAN".. pls lah.. I don't tink we shld make use of friends around us. I'm like an idiot, trying so hard and cracking my heads to find solution and to see how I can help, yet... all these while, I'm nothing but a FOOL!U r such a hypocrite, when i need help, u volunteer, yet on the other hand u r juz setting a trap waiting for me to jump in, cos u know if i'm in trouble, HE will be there for me.(cum on lah, if i wanna accept his gratititudes, u tink u have a chance to offer me? ) I was so happy & grateful that each time if i got into trouble, u r there offering to help, never did i expect, (Oops, i'm juz too stupid), i shld have realised that whenever i received helps from you, I'LL BE IN DEEPER and STINKIER SH*T, yet i'm so naive to take u as a saviour and was grateful to u.

Don't blame me for showing faces to u last nite, u shld be glad that i didn't tear off the mask on yr face in front of everybody, don't make me do it, don't test me, u know i'll do anything if i'm agitated! That's the END of our friendship! U want HIM to help u? Wait long long...