Don't give Up!

I don't understd, why are you giving up on yourself? It's hurts me so much when you told me 'I GIVE UP, will wait for the govt to give me pocket $ when i'm old"! Oh gosh.... It's not u, u are such a confident and smart lady. I wish i could have learn more from you, but it's all fated that we can only be colleague for such a short period. Like what you had always said, you wished you could work with me and Sharon, we share the same sentimental too, but how can that dream be fulfilled if you are not taking the step out. Friend, why? what went wrong? why are you giving up hope.. Times are bad, but you are not the only one who is suffering, there are thousands of ppl having the same fate as us, but they are not giving up, why can't you just try, at least try to stand up! In terms of committment, you know my burden is so much heavier than you, but... i juz have to grip my teeth and move on, telling myself, "Tmrw will be better"! Do you still remember the "promise" you made to me, 2 years back, u said " erica, i can still support you 100bucks every month, so don't worry". Frd, I felt so warm each time when i recall what you have told me... but if now i were to tell you, i still want you to keep that promise, and you are giving yourself up, what will happen to me.. Please Lily, don't give up, It's hurts me so much esp i know there's nothing much i could help you, i wish i could and i've tried but i need your help to stand up too.. u may be skinny, but i really have no strength to carry you, pls stand up on your feet again! I want to eat "expensive" chocolates and candies.. those branded stuff which you bought for me 3 years ago... Who cares if I gonna put on weight, i juz wanna have a good "choco time" with you & jolyn again.