How Can that Be

At times, i'm mean and selfish. I have every reason to say so. I have a wonderful hubby, whom may not be handsome looking, may not be highly educated, may not be rich, but i know he really loves me. He never hestitate to praise me in front of others, he never hestitate to save the best for me, but at times...sigh... i really dunno what am i thinking of... very bad..

Just like yesterday, in the car, on our way to suntec, i was thinking of someone else, i admit it... it has always been in my mind, i wonder why, the feeling of missing somone is getting stronger lately... I know i shouldn't have.. but it's not easy. yet my hubby suddenly said" hey, dear, if i have the money now, i will buy a big plasma TV for you, i will also buy u a car, for u to drive around, bring your sisters and nephews out shopping. I will bring u for holiday, i will let u choose the destination u wanna go etc.... Suddenly i felt my nose so "sour" i'm trying to hold on my tears.. it's touching... really, it's touches my heart... and that moment, i felt really bad... a voice came into my mind " hey woman, u are really too much, there your hubby having plans for u to have all the good things, here u are thinking of someone else... what kind of wife are you!" Foget about that man who has left you, or u have choosen to leave, just be a good wife to your hubby!" Be Fair!

I agree with what that "voices" said, i know i shouldn't and i promise i'll try.

Ok, My x'mas resolution for the year would be : I wished I could get to see him again, and in order for me to give up completely on him i hope he will become = botak, fat, toothless..... hahaha... not only i'm a bad wife, i'm also a bad "ex" as well.... hahahaha

***Don't let life discourage you, everyone who got where he is had to begin where he was***

No Man is worth your tears... and the one who is won't make you cry.

###Happiness is a Choice that requires Effort at times###

Don't try to make sense out of nonsense.

The Grand Essential of Happiness are:
Something to do,
something to Love,
something to Hope for.

Never Save something for tmrw

It was love at a first sight.. the boy was in college... so is the girl. He has decided not to tell her, he is happy and contented so long as he got to see her everyday. He wanted to concentrate on his studies before he declare his love... all these went on until the end of his college days. He bought a little gift, took up the courage, walk to her during the graduation party, told her " Hi, I've liked you since the day i came to the college.. do you think???? Erm... can you be my girlfriend? "Oops.. thank you very much, but i've just got a boyfriend 3 days ago, I love him, so i can't accept your love, i'm sorry!"... the boy was sad, disappointed, all he can do is watch her walking off with another guy, happily.....
How time flies... 5 years had passed, the boy who has became a man, had never been able to forget the girl he loved in the college days, every year he will write her a birthday card... a card which was never sent out. He found out that she was married .. so he told himself, he is happy so long as she is... he shouldn't disrupt her life, he missed her, he has lots of girls who wanted his attention, but all never catch his eyes... he simply couldn't forget that girl.
There goes another 5 years.... thru one of their common friends, he found out that this girl have 2 failed marriage. He was sad, sad for her, angry too, angry of the men she met, why didn't they treasure her, why can't they love her like what he did? He took the courage, call her " Hi, how are you? How's life? erm.... do you think i can ask you out for a drink? do you still remember who am I? " Oh.. of course i do.. it's been a while, sure... why don't we meet up this weekend, it's my birthday, i don't wanna be alone" "SURE"
He has so much to tell her, he can't wait till weekend, he decided to buy her a card, express all his feeling and love to her, he wanted to bring all the cards he had written for the past few years to her, he has lost too much time, he wanted to shower her with all his love he wanted her to know how much he loved her.
The day had comes, the man put on his best suit, with a big bag carrying all his loves.. all the gifts and card are inside, together with his love. Oh.. he saw her, just opposite the road, so near yet so far... she is still the same, still as sweet looking as before, still so graceful and pretty, her smile was gracious.... The man ran over the road for his love ones... yet a truck came by.. and knock him down... the girl shouted.. but it was too late..by the time she ran to him, blood was all over him, the gifts are on the floor, the letters and cards are scattered around him..... It's only on this day then she realised, what they have both missed.....

To My Wife .. .. ..

I'm writing this letter on behalf of this pathetic man i've known, I guess this gonna be what he wanted to tell his wife badly:
To My dear Wife,
Why??? what's wrong between the 2 of us.. I remembered we were so in love before.. we vowed to love forever, to be faithful and care for each other. I'm still doing it, why can't you? Was it becos i'm not good enuf? Was it becos i couldn't provide for you? was it becos I've aged and no longer as good looking as before? Why... I'll let you go, if u were to tell me frankly, why retort to black magic? don't you know that what comes around, goes around? I'll willing to die for you, I just don't want you to be hurt. Just tell me what you want. If u want me to leave, I'll go.....
I've always place you in front of everything... u refuse to acknowledge me as your husband in front of outsider, I take it as you are joking, I know you love me and I love you, the rest really doesn't matter, really! When was the last time we hold hand? when was the last time we share our problems, when was the last time we go out together? It's ridiculous, fancy living together, yet i don't get to hold you, i don't get to talk to you. My brother told me you have got another man outside, I scolded him, my friend told me you were intimate with an indian man, i told him that's your friend, I know things are not right, but just becos i love you, I refuse to believe what other's said. You want me to befriend wif him, I did as you said, I'll do whatever you say, but please, stop the black magic, it's ok if i die, i just don't you to suffer later. I'll Go... I'll let go.....