How Can that Be

At times, i'm mean and selfish. I have every reason to say so. I have a wonderful hubby, whom may not be handsome looking, may not be highly educated, may not be rich, but i know he really loves me. He never hestitate to praise me in front of others, he never hestitate to save the best for me, but at times...sigh... i really dunno what am i thinking of... very bad..

Just like yesterday, in the car, on our way to suntec, i was thinking of someone else, i admit it... it has always been in my mind, i wonder why, the feeling of missing somone is getting stronger lately... I know i shouldn't have.. but it's not easy. yet my hubby suddenly said" hey, dear, if i have the money now, i will buy a big plasma TV for you, i will also buy u a car, for u to drive around, bring your sisters and nephews out shopping. I will bring u for holiday, i will let u choose the destination u wanna go etc.... Suddenly i felt my nose so "sour" i'm trying to hold on my tears.. it's touching... really, it's touches my heart... and that moment, i felt really bad... a voice came into my mind " hey woman, u are really too much, there your hubby having plans for u to have all the good things, here u are thinking of someone else... what kind of wife are you!" Foget about that man who has left you, or u have choosen to leave, just be a good wife to your hubby!" Be Fair!

I agree with what that "voices" said, i know i shouldn't and i promise i'll try.

Ok, My x'mas resolution for the year would be : I wished I could get to see him again, and in order for me to give up completely on him i hope he will become = botak, fat, toothless..... hahaha... not only i'm a bad wife, i'm also a bad "ex" as well.... hahahaha