Sad & miserable nite

Sucks... It's 2210hr now and i'm sitting in an internet cafe, all by myself, sad life right? I tink so.. when everybody are having fun at our gathering point,hmmm i dunno if they are having fun, i dun wanna know & i can't be bother. All becos of one woman, the one whom i can't stand the sight of.. i wanna puke when i look at her, so faked. I know she won't bother to come if it's not cos His back, yes, he came back on tue, i was here, and i was surprised to see him, cos i'm not aware of his return, i didn't ask, what's the point. He seems happy that day, he did try to chat, but i shunned him off by reading my story book, it ain't interesting, but i juz dun wanna talk, dunno why... he ask if i missed him, i gave him a "stare" yes! How can you ask your friend's wif if she miss you, you crazy is it? So what if she say Yes, what can you do? Please lor, don't stir sh*t in my life, i wanna lead a happy life, not the kind of miserable life both of you have.. i'm not interested.

The moment when i saw them, all my mood gone.. i don' expect em to be ere, what the heck are ey doing ere? ey don't appear usually? Sigh... suay... to see em.. the look on their face sucks.. so black, must have irritated him again, better get away from these 2 clowns. i just get out of the car, told my hubby i need to catch a breather, i need a walk, heavy dinner, but it's already so late, the shopping mall is closed, where can i go? Thank God, there's this "hidding" place for me.

The feeling of running away from him gets stronger day after day, i dun even wanna talk to him, feel like deleting his no from my phone, i admit i'm a loser, i didn't pluck up the courage to delete all his smses, yes, i still keep em, in my old phone, i tried, but i can't.. i know somehow i will do so.. maybe when ey decided to get married... maybe.. hope the day will come soon..