A shoulder to cry on.

Who's the guy who come up with this philosophy - man don't cry.. Bullshits! They do, but often they try to control themselve since as a boy, they were taught to be strong and don't shed a tears. It broke my heart when my best friend told me he cried every hours mourning for a relationship which ended suddenly. We were supposed to meet up this week, he apologised that he have to cancel our appointment and at the same time he have a secret which was kept from me and many others for years, he needs to tell me.

He said " Erica, I have never dare telling you a secret part of my life. I have a lovely gentle chinese BOYFRIEND of your age for the past 8 years. But yesterday, he told me our love story was coming to an end and it broke my heart. I cry every hour and it is really tough. Maybe i should meet you next month instead, because this time i fear to cry in front of you. I consider you as my really best friend ever" !

I wasn't too shocked when i read this. In fact, I have long suspected that he is a Gay, as we are really best of friend, it's doesn't bother me and I'm not gonna look down or despise him or anything. I respect him and most importantly, I wants him to be happy. You know, I feel how he feels, I cried too.. I know it's not easy and I'm so worried for him. It's part of life and sometime we just have to learn to accept. I hoped he can be strong and quote what my hubby says, "the next one will be better" ( pretty surprised that my hubby's reaction was positive, thought he always can't stand gays! That's him, he will support me in anything i do or say. *_* mucks! )

I really don't know how long he will take to recover from this break off, I hope he will be strong and like what he always say to me, " YOU HAVE MY SHOULDER TO CRY ON"