What a lousy ME

I thought I will be alright.. I thought I'll be okay after so many years.. I thought i'll be strong. But in fact.. I'm damn bloody lousy.

This morning went to Bedok Reservoir to pick my sister up ( she visit her old neighbour). The moment I turn into the carpark, I started to shiver.. The scene which happened 9 years ago struck me! I just couldn't make myself stop at the block. I guess my sis is very much stronger than me, she can actually go up to the place where she once lived before the accident happened. The feeling sucks.. I realised that I just couldn't control my tears. Phew.. I really tried.. but I can't. In order not to affect my sis, I have to be strong, yet.. My *stupid* hubby actually asked me if I will ever buy a flat opposite that block! NO WAY, over my dead body! I know he don't mean to rub it in.... but sometime man are real insensitive animal.. I don't blame him lah.. just >!!<>

Sigh... really spoiled my day..