I Hate December!

December seems to be a difficult month for all of us at home. It used to be a month full of joy and happiness.

I've been thinking so much of him, those days when he was a kid, those days when we had our first meal at A&W, the gift he bought for me, the joy and happiness he had brought us, and worst, that Fateful day! I've dreamt of him lately, he was a little boy and he was sick, I had to bring him to the doctor.

It's so heart breaking, I know I shouldn't be crying, which we were told as an elder, we are not allow to pray him, not allow to cry as it's bad for him, but I just couldn't help it. It's so painful whenever we thought of him, my dearest nephew. I don't even dare to go to my sister's place, cos the atmosphere was usually "down" during this month and every year during his birthday.

I Missed him So Much! If only we can turn back the clock... I hate Christmas! I hate Boxing day! Why must it happen to my family? Why? Why Him? Life is so UNFAIR to him!